The mood is such that you sit here - think a lot and can not understand anything. In 9 days 2015 will be 10 years ago, can you imagine? 10 years! Soon exams, I was going to go to the military flight school, this game gave birth to a love for airplanes in me for 5 years already! I am worried that I will not get in, because I have a sports injury to my knees and the vision of my left eye is slightly below 1 diopter, probably, I will not get into the Russian Air Force, and it is such a pity, my dream, my dreams, my sincere feelings for aviation will sink into oblivion. It is sad, but I will have to live on, but how? Where should I work? Where should I study? Where should I earn my bread? Adulthood is soon, and no one has prepared me for it. I recently thought that the real me was lost somewhere in 2015, when I was 7-8 years old, when I flew home from vacation for the first time on a plane and I didn't care about anything, I was an absolutely carefree child. If I have a son or a daughter, I will do everything possible so that my child lives his or her childhood absolutely carefree and colorful. The main thing is to be yourself and believe in yourself. Let this year end peacefully, and the next one begin with the right transformations.