not suitable for colonels, as they can't accept apologies

Dear fans,followers,lurkers,haters,friends and others. Today qI'm going to formally address a troubling matter, if you haven't had problems getting on with me in the past please vacate this post, as what i have to say does not need to be read by you.

To whom it may concern,
Dearly beloved, we are gathered here today.... erm chogh chogh I'll start again*
Over the past week I have observed the site whilst I was on Holliday, it was on the beach on a sunny Sunday (ironically) afternoon when I had an epiphany. I realised what needed to be done and when it needed to be done, first of all i wish you all to know that from the year 2009to late 2015 I was battling it out with mental health problems, I was diagnosed first in 2013 with servere obsessive compulsive disorder and anxiety disorder, and in 2014 I was diagnosed with Autistic spectrum disorder. These 6 years were the worst 6 years of my life firstly my cat Davy a beautiful long haired black and white cat, contracted cancer for the second time, the first time he got it he had his front left leg amputated, unfortunately for the second time he was not strong enough and we had to put him to sleep, this brought on my mental decline and a few years later another cat of mine, socks, was hit by a car shortly before his first birthday I was devistated and soon became depressed, after that I had an allergic reaction whilst away from the house to a contaminated piece of cake in a café I then began having panic attacks very frequently I ended up nit being able to concentrate or think at school and kept having to be sent home from class because of my servere panic attacks, a year later I was in high school and by this time I did not feel safe eating or drinking outside of my house, and found it difficult to function outside because I feared that I would die if I touched something. The High school I was in was aware of my condition but unfortunately did not inform my teachers who induced terror into me, I do not remember much from my school exept the bad things, our mathematics teacher usualy smelled of tobacco when he taught and was racist and homophobic to my friends. He was luckily fired but only to be replaced by another teacher I will talk about that soon. Mhenewhile I was developing a talent in music soon being able to play Jimmie Hendrix songs in my guitar often impressing 6 form students and teachers. Unfortunately that led to me being pressurized into entering a talent contest, that I had a panic attack over and ran from...
The manths teacher put so much pressure on me that just one of her lessons would end with me soaking in sweat trembling and with a snapped pencil. One day she went too far and did not agnowlage the person who was recently diagnosed with ASD having a panic attack with eyes filled with fury (I heald my anger in for 7 weeks) and all she did was punish me I was curious as all the people in my class were laughing at my red face, I screamed and roared threw my chair across the room and ran away in tears of anger pain terror and relief. This ended school for me. And made my counselling sessions more frequent. That was when I started playing SP properly and uploading stuff, I was still recovering from the school thing and building planes was thereputic, I got a big book about planes that showed pictures and diagrams of old planes, I went to some small airshows, and it inspired me to become a builder. Soon I was gold and pressure was getting to me. People started to hate my character as I was usualy in no mood to talk, and gave criticism to everything crushing the dreams of many low level builders. I got into many arguments that caused me extreme mental harm, and I upset people aswell as myself, I eventually made a new account to get rid of the pressure, and it worked untill around 4 months ago when i was perscribed antidepressants and over these months I've gradually Returned to this account. People rarely understood why in the old days I was sutch a pillock so that was the purpose of that there.

Now, I wish to apologise formally and peacefully to ALL whom I have wronged or annoyed before, I apologise for anything I might have done, and i ask for forgiveness for anything I may have done.
I hope you understand that if I did ever upset you it was simply because I was not in my right mind. If any of you need anything from me please ask as I am happy to lend you my services.

-Hope you understand

-PlanesOfOld -