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My feelings...

950 MrHoboDuck  5.0 years ago

So, right now I want to be able to say things on my mind, be free and tell people how I feel. Right now I want to be able to let my mind run free and share it with people,
Just...
Well I want to be able to do this but I want to tell it to people I don’t know, like just I don’t want to tell other people I know irl,
I can’t just say what I’m thinking here cause that’s not sp related and stuff.
Not being able to say my thoughts makes me feel trapped kinda.
I want to share my thoughts to people I don’t know irl because they don’t know me, so things can’t happen,
But I don’t have anywhere to share them or anything. I guess rn I’m sharing but still...
I don’t know what to do
And I feel trapped

Like, I could make a discord server, but when I do, no one joins, and those that do are never active. I guess I’m asking you guys for a solution.
If you want I could make a discord server but I just don’t know.
I also feel more trapped bc my gf is going through very bad time bc really mean people are sending death threats, and there’s not really much I can do b/c I don’t have any classes with her, and that makes me feel helpless.

I also wanted to thank the SimplePlanes community because you guys are super nice and understanding. And I feel like I can talk to you guys. But I know I can’t post all my thoughts here because that would be spam and/or too off topic and I could be banned,

I am willing to post my thoughts here, but I would need permission for a mod or dev

Just, right now I feel, useless. I want to be free, do anything, be grown up and just live in the moment, but I can’t, I’m a 13 year old kid that feels trapped.

I guess I just want a solution, an understanding in my purpose, just a way I could be free of everything and just be myself,

And I really hate to admit it, but, well

I guess the feeling I have right now is that I don’t feel special at all.

The thing right now that I want the most isn’t some really expensive computer or something physical..

I... sigh

I want to feel special,

I’ve never been picked for anything, never Called on for a prize or anything, I’ve never gotten anything unique, or that only slecect people get,

I’ve never been special and had someone look up to me or anything.

I just want a sign, something.

Thanks for reading this, it means a lot when you take the time, just, I want a solution, a sign that I’m special. Just, something.

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    damn this is weird to read a year+ after writing it

    feelings still same though :/

    3.9 years ago
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    I only have two good friends and I rarely talk to others but personally I don’t mind but that is just me being the introvert I am

    5.0 years ago
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    24.4k NoGoCars

    Hey, I only have around 5 ish real friends and 2 close ones, so 5 in total. I would be happy with who you have, we all have about 2,500 friends here. Everybody doesn't mind each other here. Stay positive, @MrHoboDuck

    5.0 years ago
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    Viva la vida
    intensifies

    @DaKraken

    5.0 years ago
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    40.2k Awsomur

    Yeah... this isn’t the best place to get that kind of help. Talk to your parents or a trusted adult.

    5.0 years ago
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    9,389 DaKraken

    When I was THE ELITE in middle school and everything went to the toilet when I got into high school

    I used to rule the world...

    +1 5.0 years ago
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    52.8k Sadboye12

    wish all the best for you homie

    5.0 years ago
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    Hey buddy, sad to hear you're down.
    I make SimplePlanes videos for fun, mainly Multiplayer sessions and some reviews.
    We got a Discord for all ages and you're welcome to join, tho it's a little small atm :)
    Can't promise it'll be big or huge, but maybe it'll help as a starting point.
    Check out the first Discord session recording Link

    5.0 years ago
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    What about aviation? If you don’t have enough money to start flight training, if there’s a gliding club near you, you can learn to fly for a fraction of the price and there’s a whole sport that comes with it. It’s even cheaper if the club near you has a winch @MrHoboDuck

    +1 5.0 years ago
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    Hmmm...
    Video games...
    Uhhhh...
    @jamesPLANESii

    5.0 years ago
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    What are your main interests? @MrHoboDuck

    5.0 years ago
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    Any suggestions on what I could get good at? @jamesPLANESii

    5.0 years ago
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    I dunno... hmm.
    Maybe what you need to find something that you like and is productive or something. Something you can work on and get good at.
    Or maybe participate in something like a sport or an activity at school or something.

    5.0 years ago
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    It’s not like that, I don’t get in trouble at all, I’m just never picked or anything @Randomdoggo

    5.0 years ago
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    Thanks @IStoleYourMeme

    5.0 years ago
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    This is very “out of character” for lack of a better term. Usually you come across as oblivious to reality (ex. constantly making discord servers expecting a different result than the last) but this post goes directly against that. You are honest with yourself and I respect that.

    +9 5.0 years ago