WARNING

NO SUCH THING AS CHEMICAL IMBALANCE!!!

My rant is about Panic/Anxiety. Though, if you know even a little you will know OCD/Anxiety/Depression follow each other. We use OCD (repetition or routine to feel secure), when we lose that we become anxious, then comes depression.

Though, it may not manifest in this order for you anymore. It is behind the scenes in your brain.

There is such a thing as cognitive based learning. Chemical imbalance is a pharmaceutical term. The truth is that we learn to be afraid of things though life experiences. You are not scared of spiders because they are scary. Someone made you feel they were scary. (I am actually not scared of them)
We also learn to be sad through life experience.
In order to change this we need to change our cognitive outlook.

This is all fact. I am proof. I spent 10 years in the military and experienced so many near death situations that I became hypersensitive to nearly all situations with any stress. I had near daily anxiety, panic attacks all the time.
I do take Zoloft and plan on stopping soon. First I want to quit smoking. Wish I never started taking it. If I knew what I know now then I wouldn't ever needed to start taking it.

-What I have learned so far.
!Stop Panic Attacks
I have learned to accept the fear, ask for more, and think about the worst case scenario. Then ask for more! Sounds counter-intuitive, trust me it does the opposite you think it does. It actually makes your brain realize that you are fearing nothing but fear itself. Sort of...

Do some of these things when your depressed.
-Cry
-delete all News apps on your devices and turn off all news (They fear monger and feed only negative news)
-Think how others have it worse than you --> (maybe you do have it the worst, your a paraplegic, with a non-functioning unit, blind, deaf, dumb, and can't even play SimplePlanes) Do you really have it that bad???
-Hug. Don't have someone to hug, get a dog. Cats are narcissists ;)
-Stay away from alcohol and rec drugs (these create a depression/anxiety cycle)
-If it's S.A.D. aka. winter blues. Buy a T-5 florescent light at your big box store. Hang it above you while you build SimplePlanes builds. Can't afford that, go to a retail store with bright lights. Walk around and talk to random people or stay to yourself and read product boxes.
-Go to a Starbucks, drink a caramel macchiato with an extra shot and stare at people until one says somet

@GeneralPatrick2 keep your head up, don't let that crown fall

Thank you for the advice, and I'll try my best to share what worries me with people I trust.

ngl this made me feel a bit better knowing my intuitions to share my feelings with others weren't wrong, and so anyways if anyone needs someone to talk to I'd be happy to help.

@TitanIncorporated thanks man

@Shadowed now building soothes me, I was building a nice fighter but they took my laptop away

@thefalkenreich I'm glad

ohh man i feel ya, in times like these the support from others is so important to have. that i really can testify, hiding your feelings only ends up worse for you. and- if you need anyone to talk to im here

@SemedianIndustries Great!

I did, I'm going to a therapist soon. @SemedianIndustries

@randomusername I'm in the Air Force, but this can happen to anyone

@Sm10684 never in my life I was so happy for being Rickrolled

@thefalkenreich you didn't do anything to deserve this, talk it out, it's not easy but you must do it, friends, family or professionals

@Gameboi14 talk about it to your close friends, or if you think it doesn't help, seek professional help like I did

@Tully2001 that's exactly how I got into this situation

I actually have depression inside me, I just don't show it

I cant believe I'm saying this but last night I conducted self harm, I had crippling emotions so I sliced my finger. it still hurts mentally .

Hope you feel better. I know 2 well what it's like going though life with depression

Get better soon, buddy.

I suggest you watch this whole thing

I hope you get better soon